2021/03/09 T 1425

Divergence

I (hipstre@protonmail.com) am sure this has happened to you: You start a project of some sort with clear goals. You take two steps into the Unknown, and are completely lost like the hobbit or dwarves who strayed off the path in "The Hobbit" or "The Lord of the Rings." I am not sure which one. This happens to me in everything I do. It happens to me when I am washing my face. It's some kind of "madness" that I can't stop or control. I want to control it.

How could it happen when I wash my face? I start washing my face, and start thinking about how this whole system could be changed. I start thinking, "I could make a mask that does this. It would be custom-fitted to my face. I stick it on my face and jets of soapy water shoot out, then it rinses." I will think of ten more inventions while doing. I will think, "faucets should really be foot controlled, and so should toilets." But it goes on and on from there. Little rabbit holes of invention, variation, diversion. I end up being ANGRY when I am done washing my face because I know I will never do ANY of it.

That is the state of this project. I swerved ALL OVER THE PLACE. I found ALL KINDS of information. I followed link after link down rabbit hole after rabbit hole. I decided I should change the name of the project. "Bytebeat" is what everyone calls it. I like doing it in Ruby. Not object-oriented Ruby. The Imperative Ruby (with inherent OO that makes good tools) that everyone ignores. I am an idiot. I am ALL OVER THE PLACE. There are tools, ideas, and links scattered all over the place. I don't even know where to begin. Nothing "works".

I literally don't even know where to BEGIN describing what I am trying to do. Everything is half-done in my mind, and nothing really works when it hits silicon. I am like one of those assholes who thinks he disproved Quantum Physics, but "needs a little help with the math." But I know I have done no such thing.

comments: hipstre@protonmail.com